Wednesday, December 21, 2011

It's been a while...

I'm back. I really am back. This time, I think I have something to say.
A lot has happened over the last year, and things got pretty interesting.

My love life is a mess. Yep. I will admit it. I have terrible taste in horrible men. One day I will figure it out, but for now, I guess I just have some great stories to tell. I'm going to write a book. You'll have to read about it there... :)

I don't want to sound crazy, and in fact, I just don't want to talk about it. I'm not sad anymore, I'm a little mad, a little disappointed. But most of all, I am relieved. After 6 weeks of marriage, I will be filing an annulment.

“We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive.”~C.S. Lewis~

But guess what? It's all right. I didn't lose myself. I actually found me again. And this time... I won't lose me. It's hard to admit when you have made a mistake, but it is even harder to pretend you are happy so that people won't realize that you made a mistake. Sometimes you need to put on your big girl panties and admit it. Yep. I did something stupid. I was looking for love and fell for something that wasn't even close. I wanted it so badly that I settled. I am not ashamed for what I felt, I am just sad that it didn't work this time. So, time to correct my course, my sights are set on the horizon, and I won't give up.
Stay tuned... I have plenty more to say!

2 comments:

  1. (((HUGS))) I have been so out of the loop but so happy you are "OK". Miss ya...

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