It's 10:53 and I should be sleeping. It seems like sleep has been eluding me lately... I have quite a bit on my mind right now, so maybe just putting it out there will help me get it out of my head. Here goes.
School is crazy. I find if funny that the class I thought would be the hardest (pharmacology) isn't, and the one I thought would be easy, you know, a 'refresher' (microbiology) is the one that is killing me!
It doesn't help that I have been rough on myself. I guess it all goes back to my teaching experience and understanding what is expected of me and what I should be expecting from myself. I didn't think nursing school would be easy, don't get me wrong, I know it is a lot of work. I guess I just didn't expect it to hit me so hard and all at once. I am trying to find my balance, to budget my time more wisely and make sure I balance out my educational endeavors with "me time" as well as my much needed "Hannah time." If anyone has any great suggestions to get me through, let me know.
I finally got a chance to see my doctor. I haven't been in for over a year. I haven't felt 'well' for about a month and just seemed to be getting worse. I diagnosed myself several times (lol) but figured I should let the professionals do their jobs. Turns out I have a kidney infection. Strange because I didn't have the typical symptoms you would expect with one. No urinary frequency or burning, just a chronic back ache, decreased energy, brain fog, and some nausea. I know, too much information.... My doc was pretty upset that I waited so long to be seen. I guess I should have jumped on it sooner... So long story short, I am on my second dose of antibiotics and hopefully this one will do the trick.
Now to talk about my Hannah... oh how I love that girl! I have to brag on her for a minute. She is doing such a great job in school. Her teacher has nothing but great things to say when I talk with her, her grades are amazing, and she is excelling in her gymnastics. I was a little worried that with her leveling up and it taking up more time (she goes 12 hours a week now) that her grades would suffer. She has worked so hard and I am so proud of her! I love to go into the gym after school and watch her from the balcony when she doesn't know I am watching. She has such grace and poise, but I sense her insecurities sometimes and I wish I could help her understand just how amazing she is. She will compete for the first time this May. I can't wait to watch her shine.
Last but not least... the relationship status. Oh, yes, the lovely category I try to avoid.
As of Friday, my annullment is official. What a relief it is to know that a part of my life, a chapter I would love to forget, has been wiped away. I have been seeing a wonderful man... His name is Les and I can't wait to tell you all about him...
Goodnight to all of you who still follow me... I appreciate your love and support and wish you all sweet dreams...
